Love or lust. Discern what is driving you. Lust is based on your senses and is worldly. Love is based in your spirit and is heavenly. Lust is the predominant driver in all your operations in the world. Most times, you are unconscious of this driver because your senses control you. When you become conscious of lust, you can detach yourself from it. Lust for power, sex, control, and success are all rooted in self or ego. The ego drives you to want more and more. You think the more you have, the more you will be satisfied. This is a delusion, for there is no limit to the lust of greed. Just like a hungry lion, you are driven for more. In the end, you come to a place where you come to your senses or consciousness that all you have been driven to is pointless, an illusion of satisfaction. This is the point where you hit rock bottom and now seek that which lasts, that has eternal value. The things that you chased after were mere wind with no substance. Now you are ready to seek that which is eternal and which Christ purchased for you on the Cross, your salvation. Everyone goes through this journey, and till death, there is a pursuit for happiness, a desire to be fulfilled. The only real fulfilment is found in Christ, who has gone before to prepare a place for you with Him in eternity.
I worked as a Consultant Psychiatrist in UK and Australia for over 40 years.